ASS On Fire Takes You Higher

Happiness or Despair - (Call it sadness/depression if you want to). Am I the only one here who talks to himself ?  Oh No!! Wait. You right there with your hand on the touch-pad or the mouse, sitting on the chair, lying on your bed or hanging from the ceiling with a noose around your neck. I know you. I know you used to talk to yourself. You had wonderful and profound conversations with your inner-self, until that fateful day. When someone overheard you two talking. And since then the inner voice won't answer any of your questions. It has gone Silent. You have lost your best friend , some one who understood most of your problems, even though you two may not have agreed to everything , actually I remember all the arguments which you had. The late nights when you stayed up arguing about the cosmos, philosophy and anything under the sun. But now those days are loong gone. And that's the reason, I can see the noose is out and the voice is gone and dea...

Anger: One of the emotions which has put me in trouble multiple times in the past.  From breaking a window with my fist and cutting my own wrist in the process ( when I was 11 ) to losing my best friend ( when I was 23 ). I have always had these MoMs since I can remember.  MoM : Moments of Madness . I thought I was past that phase of me now. That I had things under control, I thought I was getting good at curbing the anger whenever I can and not hurting others around me and in the process hurting myself.  But then a day like this comes along. I am here banging on my keyboard when I rather feel like Banging my keyboard and walking out of here. Smashing the monitor, throwing it over the cubicle wall. Screaming a loud FUCK YOU to the world and walking out of here. I am sitting here staring at my screen and still trying to curb my anger in writing by punching my keyboard when I would rather be somewhere else punching a Boxing Bag instead. I need to get ou...

For the past few weeks/months. I have transformed from using one Microsoft tool to another. Previously I used to work in Microsoft .Net and SQL Server tools. But for the past many months I have been using Microsoft Word, writing great/giant/huge epics of Documents, which I am not sure if anyone even reads or not. I must have ended up writing millions of words on white virtual papers and uploading these documents to Documentum for others to read and follow my instructions. (How much of the instructions are followed is left to everyone's imagination) This extensive use of Microsoft Word has led me to realize one thing. If you are using the Queen's English and using some heavy-duty words which do not make sense to the general public, then there is a great chance that those words do not make sense to MS Word as well. Now as my avid readers can easily understand that I abstain from using these flowery words when I write for them on my blog, but when I write at work I ha...