Anger
Anger: One of the emotions which has put me in trouble multiple times in the past.
From breaking a window with my fist and cutting my own wrist in the process (when I was 11) to losing my best friend (when I was 23).
I have always had these MoMs since I can remember.
MoM : Moments of Madness.
I thought I was past that phase of me now. That I had things under control, I thought I was getting good at curbing the anger whenever I can and not hurting others around me and in the process hurting myself.
But then a day like this comes along. I am here banging on my keyboard when I rather feel like Banging my keyboard and walking out of here. Smashing the monitor, throwing it over the cubicle wall. Screaming a loud FUCK YOU to the world and walking out of here.
I am sitting here staring at my screen and still trying to curb my anger in writing by punching my keyboard when I would rather be somewhere else punching a Boxing Bag instead.
I need to get out of here. From this room, from this office, from this building.
THIS IS COSMIC (literally) BLASTING OFF !!!!!!!!
From breaking a window with my fist and cutting my own wrist in the process (when I was 11) to losing my best friend (when I was 23).
I have always had these MoMs since I can remember.
MoM : Moments of Madness.
I thought I was past that phase of me now. That I had things under control, I thought I was getting good at curbing the anger whenever I can and not hurting others around me and in the process hurting myself.
But then a day like this comes along. I am here banging on my keyboard when I rather feel like Banging my keyboard and walking out of here. Smashing the monitor, throwing it over the cubicle wall. Screaming a loud FUCK YOU to the world and walking out of here.
I am sitting here staring at my screen and still trying to curb my anger in writing by punching my keyboard when I would rather be somewhere else punching a Boxing Bag instead.
I need to get out of here. From this room, from this office, from this building.
THIS IS COSMIC (literally) BLASTING OFF !!!!!!!!
Lovely memories, aren't they? Blogs, books and long walks help a bit. Anything to avoid popping a blood vessel.
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